Monday, October 31, 2005


Back in Longview--graaaRRRR!

What a fall break. So I figured it would be rather uneventful, just some homework and preparing my costume for an awesome party this coming weekend while taking a "week off" from my boyfriend at his insistence. So the weekend went fine, consisting of obscene amounts of mother-daughter bonding time, mountains of laundry, and a continuous effort to convince my dad I should live in an apartment next semester.

Speed, my brother(aka Daniel), decided we were going to drive the red BMW (model 2002) back to Longview, in hopes of selling it. This car is cool and all, but it definitely doesn't have a working speedometer. Ahahaa! Where the fun begins. So by the time we get to Henderson, I'm like, "Oh, wow. We're making great time; it has only been three hours!" Not 10 minutes later did I see a swirl of blue and red flash in my rear view mirror. "You've got to be kidding me!" Speed having read the "Speeders Guide to Avoiding Tickets," insisted I start crying. Um....ok. Definitely not an easy task in front of people. All I could do was sniffle. Luckily we close enough to school so that I was able to play the LeTourneau card. In the end...

I only got a warning!
LeTourneau's good for something : )

A chaotic two day week (yes, it is possible), allowed for an awesome wkend! Space Ghost--check out those muscles! Reagan--he does exist! That Mad Hatter guy is pretty cool : D You know you have a way cool party when u empty a keg. Gotta love cave peeps. I'm pretty sure Hookah pulls off the 80's rocker look too well : ) Bum and emo kid always make for interesting company. That lawn nome sure had chicks chasin him at all hours. Watch out for those Yankees in the haunted woods~~spooky! Overall, a much enjoyed wkend.

Sunday, October 16, 2005



Boys. wtF! porque? Ok, I guess this would be an oportune time to explain one of my philosophies on life. Boys; how can they initiate and then place blame? How can they spend so much time but in the end not give a shit? whoa, the mind of a boy soling seeking self gratification at too many moments in time, thinking about others only when convenient. Acting like they love someone they don't want to have. Wanting someone they can't have. Lacking any significant intelligence in such matter, or awareness of this deficit. Leading someone to believe what seems to be the desired standing. Making circumstances convenient. Attempting to utilize such circumstances. Boys. Too many of no pertinent value. Eyes without a heart. Lust. Too many who don't wear the pants. A select few not appreciated.

Women. Emotion. Estrogen. Lack of logic. Fear. Irrational. I absolutely hate the fact that too many chicks play guessing games. Heck if your mad about something just say so and what in regards to. Seems to me the quickest approach for resolution. Sorcerers. OMG! The power of a women. So many are too good ant playing games with the influential minds of little boys in pursuit. But why? To often because they just don't care and because what their getting means more to then than the heart of what may be a man. I mean with such forces a woman could too easily turn an ordinary male into a mere nute! Unfortunately it cannot be denied that such things occur. And yet if confronted, we as females are quite capable of placing severe blame and just getting plain pissy, this blog being a prime case in point. Enough description. You get it. Quality a challenge to come across, but far from extinct.

Synopsis thus far...

Boys are dumb and women are bitchy.

It holds true in to many instances and circumstances. This being the case, how are they to ever coincide? If a man can tolerate and understand such realities, than I applaud you and may you continually possess unfathomable patience. Females on the other hand, forbearance for a boy's nearly inevitable lack of consideration, must take an unimaginable amount of devotion. But, must either of these senarios be the case? In this vast yet deffinative world, can not a logical female run across an aware male?

I have.

Sunday, October 09, 2005






Well, another Sunday night. An interesting weekend to say the least. PEOple. Ok, in short: birthday, hookahs, Razoo's, chill, thoughts. One prominent sense of confusion this weekend: can one assume the present to be the same severity as the past? It seems to me investigation would be necessarry before making such an assumption. Sure would be inconvenient to plan around an aspect that doesn't exist. Oh well. Their loss.

The future--a crazy thing to think about. What will be there. What I want to be there. Who will be there. Who I want to be there. How we'll get there. Time--to long. Not enough.

Monday, October 03, 2005

I got accepted to UTA!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

can’t focus must

why drama drives despised

symbolism reality dreams

reason implication letter mater of fact

concentration lack there of

love hatred concern

focus study must focus

embarrassment pain remorse

vent vent vent no one

here there miles

school study not

pass present wish future

here must be choices

time effort

thoughts none too many

focus absent



hope